Recording a podcast episode on The Twilight Zone movie in a bit. I am a bit drunk.

I want my boyfriend so bad. I can't get enough of him. Last weekend I was just all over him constantly. He is so fucking good. Incredible. It'll be 5 months we've been together this Friday and I cannot wait to fucking pounce on him. I'm going to back myself against the hotel table and wrap my arms around him and drag him towards me. Pull up my dress, turn my pants to the side and get him to shove his cock right inside me. Prop one foot up on the chair and the other foot up on the table and just have some intimate, as close as we can be fucking.

Sometimes it sucks that we can only see each other at weekends. But it also makes the weekdays at work more worth struggling through.

Last weekend I was so constantly wanting sex. To the point I was staring at him in a suggestive way very late Saturday night and he said "I'm actually a bit tired.." so I got all pouty and stupidly upset because my brain told me that he didn't want me. I'm not used to being told no. I got tearful and quiet and sat on the spare hotel bed (it was a family room with a double bed and single bed for some reason) and he eventually came over and asked what was up. I explained and he reassured me and kissed me and held me a lot. After we "made up" he said "well, just doing sitting here with you all close and kissing has woken me up.. I think we should fuck after all." I said for him not to do it just to please me, I would feel guilty otherwise.

But he stood me up, threw me on the bed and gave me a fucking amazing pounding, haha. He was pulling my hair, biting my neck and tits, circling his perfect tongue around my nipples until I moaned so loud, clamping his hand around my throat that would make me struggle to cutely giggle, roughly pinning my arms above my head as he was saying in my ear about how much of a good fucking girl I am, how he fucking loves me so much, how fucking tight I am, how fucking incredible I am to fuck. When my eyes would roll back from how good it felt he'd fuck me even faster and deeper and gasp loads. When he was saying all this sexy as fuck stuff I could just immediately feel the sensations coming. I came so hard. And because of that he came inside me straight after and I fucking love being on the pill, being able to feel his cum filling up inside me, his cock twitching as he's panting then pulls out to collapse beside me breathless and needing to recover.

"Angry sex" even though we've never had an argument was hot as fuck. Ever since our first date and we went back to the hotel we had incredible sex (oh my god he's so good with his tongue when he goes down on me, aaaah!), but it just keeps getting better and better. His cock is just perfect. He fucked me so hard the other week that I was bleeding a little after hahaha, I think he destroyed my cervix. But it was so fucking worth it. I love pain, so that was just grand.

I've been thinking about it all week. It gives me butterflies. The thought of him gives me butterflies constantly.

In particular I get something called "fanny flutters" hahahahaha. It's the most accurate description along with the butterflies. I constantly get this. And when I'm at work at my desk it is so annoyingly difficult not to put a hand down there and rub away. Just secretly. I am getting so bad I am trying to build up the courage to take my little bullet toy in my bag at work and sneak off to the bathroom to have a moment to myself but I am so loud, and I'd be so paranoid.. maybe one day haha. I NEED THAT RELEASE, MAN. I can't wait until work is over every night and get on my bed in private to sort myself out all the time. But anyway, this is such an incredibly gross and candid saying but this is what it means..

In case you didn't know, fanny flutter is the slight tingling sensation a person with a vagina will get down below when they see someone they have a sexual attraction to. The tingling sensation could range from contractions in the vagina to actually feeling like you're going to have an orgasm.

He makes me feel so wanted, so sexy, so beautiful, so amazing. I've never been able to cum so hard with someone before.

I am so turned on, sorry. I can't exactly post this anywhere else, hahaha.

Fuck me, he's just the best. I love him so much.

He's going to get jumped on as soon as that hotel door shuts on Friday evening. I am craving him so bad. Fucking ravenous, mate.

8:21 p.m. - Wednesday, Feb. 19, 2020